Monday, December 17, 2012


I'm not sure what to write about the recent tragedy that took place in conneticut. It is sad, it is horrible, and it is heart wrenching. Whenever I start to think about it, which I have often since it happened, my throat seems to swell and my heart beats fast and my vision becomes slightly blurred. I start to imagine Talis being the one who was sent off to school and receiving the news that no parent should ever have to receive. I feel as though when I think about it for too long and I think these thoughts I start to experience what these parents are going through but I'm not. Not even a little bit. My family is my world and to think of any part of it, especially the innocent and sweet part of it that gives me tender kisses and wants me to hold him most of the day, would wreck me.

It's easy to be cynical in this world today, to think the worst of every person and of every situation. And yet when horrible tragedies like this happen I am reminded of the power of the human spirit. How in the middle of such great loss people seem to come together, to lift each other up, and to extend love to those around them that they might not of before. I watched this clip of one of the victims fathers. After loosing his own daughter in the shooting he talks of his love and condolences to all the victims and their families, including that of the shooter. He is proof that God is far more powerful than evil. That there is still good in this world. Still love and kindness. My thoughts and prayers are with them. May we each try to be the good, the love, and the kindness in this world that often times can seem so dark.

Monday, December 10, 2012

in a blink.

My last post was about Halloween and then I blinked my eyes and we straight by passed November and all it's Thanksgiving goodness and now were already seven days into December. Time is flyin' around here lately and there never seems to be enough of it. Being pregnant with a toddler is purely exhausting. And I feel as though I can never finish anything. For example, I wrote the first few sentences, got distracted, and now several days later am sitting back in front of the computer writing (but I say writing loosely as it's been the only "me" time I've had in a while so it's mostly Pinterest and re-watching the first season of The Walking Dead). The sick bug hit our house sometime last week and still never really left. DJ came down with a sore throat, then a cough, which then progressed to a handful of day and nights spent in bed with a high fever and soon as DJ started to function again Talis took his turn but don't worry, with both the boys on the mend (kinda they're still in pretty bad shape) I started to feel crummy. As we try to all get better the one dominating thing that seems to command my thoughts these days is Christmas. But not the over joyed super excited anticipation of Christmas like usual but almost a overhanging feeling that this year it just seems like a nuisance. I hate even thinking it, especially with Talis and the fun parent moments that I'm sure will happen this year with him. Maybe it's because we've all been sick for so long or that we haven't even put up a tree yet but I'm having trouble getting into the holiday spirit this year. I'm not sure how to get out of this funk. I'm hoping as soon as we get a tree and decorate it my mood will change or maybe I just need a solid nights sleep and stop staying up late doing ridiculous things like browsing Pinterest and watching Netflix.....nah ;)